American actor Will Smith shares a devastating moment he had with his father 25 years back~details below

MY FATHER WAS VIOLENT, HE WAS AN ALCOHOLIC-- WILL SMITH

The 53-year-old movie producer, director, actor and a rapper recount the violent moment he passed through between his parents that he would never forget.

Following an exclusive citation from his upcoming memoir titled ‘Will’ — published by People on Wednesday. Smith recall how he once contemplated killing his late dad to avenge the abuse his mother (Caroline Bright) went through.

in his statement he said “My father was violent, but he was also at every game, play, and recital. He was an alcoholic, but he was sober at every premiere of every of my movies,” he wrote.

“The same intense perfectionism that terrorized his family put food on the table every night of my life.”

“When I was nine years old, I watched my father punch my mother in the side of the head so hard that she collapsed. I saw her spat blood. That moment in that bedroom, probably more than any other moment in my life, has defined who I am,” he wrote.

“Within everything that I have done since then – the awards and accolades, the spotlights and attention, the characters and the laughs – there has been a subtle string of apologies to my mother for my inaction that day. For failing her in the moment. For failing to stand up to my father. For being a coward.”

Recall that Will Smith lost his father to cancer about 16 years after his parents divorced.

“One night, as I delicately wheeled him from his bedroom toward the bathroom, a darkness arose within me,” Smith continued.

“The path between the two rooms goes past the top of the stairs. As a child I’d always told myself that I would one day avenge my mother. That when I was big enough, when I was strong enough, when I was no longer a coward, I would slay him.

“I paused at the top of the stairs. I could shove him down, and easily get away with it. … As the decades of pain, anger, and resentment coursed then receded, I shook my head and proceeded to wheel Daddio to the bathroom.”

"This made me cry sometimes, I just felt like getting them back together as one good family-- but my dad gets intoxicated, he said.